Prayer

Kirk and I have made a goal this month to attend the temple together every.single.week. then share our testimony in Church about the holy lessons we have learned.

Last Wednesday we walked hand in hand across the street to that beautiful place.

(Oh my gosh! I've dreamed of this sense I was a little girl! And here i am...with HIM...

my ETERNAL COMPANION! is this real!? yes!! i am so proud of myself for

making it here, for not letting anything get in the way of this... wow! how thankful!!)

Before I put on my white dress, I knelt in prayer in my little tiny cubicle of a dressing room

and prayed to My God that I would have an open heart.

I've never prayed there before.

I always do while we we're waiting, but not like that.

And I believe heavenly Father opened the door for me that night...

He opened the windows, the chimney, the garage, the gutters!

He poured out His spirit upon me and I grew so much that night.

I am completely convinced that can happen every time, as I kneel in prayer.

I can't hardly believe the power prayer has, for it has healed my soul and I have drawn strenth many times upon my knees..

but there is nothing so powerful, so encompassing, so complete and whole

as prayer within Gods Holy Temple.

For it is through prayer that we learn, that we progress and have a change of heart, it is the process by through which we repent, where love grows, where we build a relationship with Jesus Christ, it's how we worship, ...it is the root of progression.

How profoundly simple.

Pray.

Dedicated to little Dylan

Working on Pediatrics has been what I always dreamed of as a little girl. (I think Heavenly Father has a way of giving us what we want if we do what He wants, always. If not, he'll give us something better.) As a woman on this earth, the opportunity for motherhood has always always burned inside me. I think it does for all little girls! We play 'house' and dress our dollies, braid our barbies hair and collect our siblings to form a class to play 'school'... it is a special spirit and gift instilled in all little girls. We all one day want to be a mom. I have always wanted that, and even more as I've grown up.

I owe to that "special spirit" the goal I've always had of working with kids in a career setting . It wasn't until I was a little older that I discovered my love for learning about our bodies. It blows my mind that God is so smart, the more I learn the more I marvel at His knowledge. And to think....one day I get the opportunity to be like Him if I choose to listen and follow Him... . What a perfect combo- taking care of, or being a mother figure for children in a medical setting...

Well, I remember being little and often pulling out a childrens dictionary we had. It had lots of simple worded references to the human body. Even when we would go to my grandma Burgoynes house, as a little girl, I would adventure downstairs into her library and for a few minutes search her encyclopedias. I said it multiple times, and I will say it again.. in a most perfect world I would be a Pediatric Doctor. Mostly for the knowledge and education I would recieve... But I fall back to that "special spirit" I mentioned earlier, that calls within my heart a deep desire to be a mother, more then anything. There is nothing I would do to take time away from my family. I would love to be a doctor, but not enough to prioritize it infront of my motherhood. Afterall, my husband and I will become ultimate physicians in the world to come, and I look forward to that with earnestness and excitement. But until that glorious day comes....and until motherhood comes... I have rejoycingly achieved an inner goal of working with children at the hospital.

Owe, the things I have learned.

I look at the amazing women I work with. Every one of them has been an example to me and have added precious moments and lessons to my life. They are such wonderful mothers, incredibly loving nurses and brilliantly beautiful thinkers. I can't help but continuously think to myself "What does my God want me to learn from her?"

When I dwell on the way I feel about working on pediatrics with the children and the reason I love it, it but only sheds light on what has drawn others to work there as well. We all as women have a nurturing light within our beings to care for these pure children.

I wish the feelings of thankfulness I feel could somehow be shown through my words.

We recently had a sweet boy of ours pass away. And indeed, truly and sincerely, we felt that he was ours. When you serve and care for these little kids and their families with long-term illnesses, how can we not feel we've lost a piece of our own heart when we lose them. I just know that we all have our favorite little patients that we look forward to treating.. whether they be our cancer kids or brand new glowing faces coming to our floor. There is just so much compassion and heart warming blessings that I have felt from my work.

I wish with you a few things I have learned from these wonderful children:

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  Be brave.



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  It's easy to forgive.



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  Toothless smiles and freckled faces make me happy.



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  I can do anything when my mom is holding my hand and family is everything.

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  Everyone loves homemade pictures.



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  Don't forget to say please and thank you.



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  Everyone loves to be loved.



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  If I close my eyes I'm not scared.



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  A little sacrifice now will make me happier later.



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  Trust.



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  Patience and love.
  

Salt Lake City!

We FINALLY got the chance to go to SL last weekend! and boy was it overdue! we must have done something right to have such amazing families and friends. we have decided that josh and heather need to move to st george b/c we freakin love them! they are by far our best friends in the whole world...this whole distance thing just isn't workin for us! so when you read this heather, if you and josh could work on that-it'd be GREAT! love ya!!

we went to the Joseph Smith Memorial building on saturday for a huge McAllister family celebration. grandma turned 80!! and it was a beautiful sight to see her entire family there. everyone had to travel in from various areas but aunt Kathy had been plannin this for over a year! and EVERYONE made it! she did an excellent job! there is something miraculous about a close knit family! grandma and grandpa mcallister are such an in-love couple...i can just see the memories they have made and the challenges they have faced and the life they have lived. they still joke with each other, show affection to one another and find joy in each others happiness. they are an example of who i want to become 60 years down the road with my handsome kirk.

after words kirk and i took the opportunity to walk the Salt Lake Temple grounds. we could not have asked for a more beautiful spring day to do so! it is so easy to feel the spirit on dedicated ground. about a week ago Kirk and I watched a movie on the symbolizm of the Sl Temple, so we shared our testimonies and thoughts on that as we marveled at this gosple. he is incredible.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLIE!

THEN! saturday night was hoppin at my house!! my sis had friends over watching movies and chillin, my little brother had him-his date and 2 other couples playing pool and air hockey ALL over the place! but we ended up hot tubbing with my older bro and all his high school friends! thanks to mom who bought us new swim suits just because, and left them for us to find on the guest room bed (where we stayed)! that was a ton of fun!! good music. good memories and hilarious company! awh! those are the days!! ...hanging out with my sis... making sunday dinner with my mom... going to church with my entire family! ...the boys watchin sports while the girls chit chat... moms home-made cookies and brownies from scratch! she is by FAR the greatest cook on the face of this planet!... playing the piano for my husband... and laughing our BOOTAY off! i just love how much fun we have with them!! and it's soo easy to be together! i think this is the first time we survived a trip of no food fights started by dad! can't even believe it! i love them!

Top Ten

It's only thursday and this week has already been ROCKIN! Why? because......

1. we went SWING DACING! awh! we haven't done that sense our wedding! We went with Jon & Amanda and Tyson & Jade! Can you say UH-MAZING!? And of course, ice cream afterwords=AlWaYs a must!
2. ultimate frisbee-glow in the dark style!! SO FUN! with chelsey & gordon, mark & jessica. we love meeting new friends! ESpeCiaLlllLLLly when they have dirt bikes too!!
3. driving all the way to mesquite with my wonderful husband to rescue a BOM. long story! fabulous story!
4. getting off work EARLY!! letting me see my husband b/f he goes to the fire department and allowing me more sleep for the previous night of 3 hours! hahahaha
5. st patty's day of course! pics below :)
6. one BEA-Utiful pic nic!
7. finding sticky notes GALORE all over my car from my best best VERY best st george friend! Chelsey Baker! whom i am EXTREMELY glad to have back from a freakin long Florida trip...butthead
8. making my husband happy with the sale on powerade TWENTY-FIVE CENTS A BOTTLE!....4 cases later made me a VERY proud wife!
9. finding a new and most excellent song that i just LOVE~! you should listen to it...it's called Love Like Crazy and it's on this blog's music mix!
10. And getting asked to LAS VEGAS GIRLS NIGHT OUT! WahOooOoOoOO! Janelle is ENGAGED! and we're celebrating! the first thing on the agenda is pedicures for our SHOE SHOPPING! Awwwwh! i'm seriously so freakin excited, it's RIDIC. YAY!
11. having a camp out on our family room floor! we layed our blankies and pillows on the carpet and had a sleep over! it was way fun!
12. CaFe RiO with SUSIE Q! which encompasses MUCH! ...entering the Nerd Room, mushing about our husbands...solving world probelms-you know how we do!

I LOVE ST GEORGE!

Happy St Patricks day!!!

our FIRST St Patrick's Day

MARRIED!

some little leprechaun found us!

65 degrees and breakin out the PIC NIC BLANKET!

our road trip!

Well! day light savings threw us off a litttttle more then we thought!

we were very much enjoying a

beautiful
sunday
morning
together...

so so happy and grateful to have that long morning with one another,

in fact,

it was one of those moments where nothing mattered but kirk and me...

we were letting the time peacfully pass us by.

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before we could comprehend ...it was already past 1pm!

OoOoops-a-daisy!!

day light savings hit us so quickly that we didn't even make it to a one-o-clock AfTeRnOoN church schedule!!

So we dicided to take our Book of Mormon and go to zions with our annual pass and enjoy all of Gods beauty around us...

it was glorious.

The very most perfect way to spend a sunday...

with my eternal companion.

On our way home we got a little more adventerous and decided to make a pit stop in colorado city to see our polygamist neighbors in their natural habitat :)

Here are our candid pictures!...

it was wonderful!

my candy cane husband!

Okay okay...

YES, i shoulda put two and two together...

BuT.

I didn't think that Kirk

would go tanning for

the full amount of time on his FIRST VISIT!!!

Island Tans by our house was having a big spring sale dealio and they were

selling tan's for $3.

So i told kirk about it and i guess i should have explained a little more about

the ins and outs of tanning. SO... better late then never:

1. DO choose the BeSt smelling lotiong and indulge! -DON'T go without
2. DO let your receptionist guide you through choosing the correct amount of time to cook...they are VeRy good at that :) DON'T, once again (my man), DO NOT go full time your first round.... with love of course!
3. DO pic your favorite radio station in the whole wide world at BlAsT iT! DON'T be embaressed if you walk out of your room and the multiple guests waiting in line for your bed make fun of your singing.... (like today hahaha i walked out and could hear my music still on in my room... all the way out at the front desk! hahaha oops! and bridget made sure i woulnt live that down, along with the 3-4 ppl waiting in line hahaha LOVE it)
4. DO relax, dream and savor every.single.minute and DO let it re-energize your day!
5. Awhhh. and DO LOVE IT!
6. oh! and DO buy an unlimited months pass b/c it is SooOooO worth it! if you go often, it feels so refreshing and makes ya feel fabulous!

Now go grab your girlfriend, husband, bff or whatev and hit the salon! Just be careful you don't come out burnt to a crisp like my hubby b/c you will look like a snake shedding its skin the next day! sorry baby :( thank goodness he's a fireman and can get AWESOME burn lotion!

dancin in the moonlight!

SoooO for family home evening we couldn't decide what to do for the LIFE of us! so we went for a drive...we drove and drove and drove. after making a stop at our hicktown wal mart in hurricane we decided to drive to the lake. now, mind you, there are noooo street lights here, so at night it is absolutely BLACK. except for the stars of course :) when we got to the lake it was so dark we could barely see the reflection of the moon at stars, the occasional car lights in the far distance and that was about it! i was actually kinda suprised they didn't have any lights at the lake for safety reasons, but i was soo okay with it. kirk parked the car on the loading ramp and we walked out on the dock. it was so beautiful! i loved hearing the water swirl around under us and it brought back summertime for me! water skiing, wakeboarding, the hot sun, skinny dipping, laying out..awh! this is going to be so fun!! then in the excitment of all my thinking, kirk pulled me in closer and whispered.."do you want to dance?" ....well heck yeah!! then i had one of those out-of-body experiences where you watch yourself from a distance. dancing on the dock to the music of the lake, in the middle of no where, on a dark spring night, just me and my kirk. he's so sweet and precious to me and i love him!

MY college experience... MARRIED!

remember how every crazy fun thing we do in high school was decided in a split-second?! from the things we ate to the messes we got oursevles into...but BOY it was fun! i look back at the friends i had, the memories we made and the exciting life we lived and i get that same energy all over again! after graduation you have one thing to look forward too=TEN TIMES MORE FUN IN COLLEGE! being on your own, no curfew, no limits, just you against the world. but might i add....those crazy college experieces that last a lifetime...the busy, spur of a moment excitment is forever and FARRR more alive in me b/c i get to share it with my eternal companion. and together we get to remember and create our college lifes hand in hand.
last night after the sun went down kirk and i were just hanging out. kirk asked me what i wanted to to do and i told him i wanted to sleep under the stars. so that's what we did! this is sooo not new for us b/c we camp anywhere in a moments decision. how i love him. i love his adventerous and daring energy. there is nothing we won't do together. i am so happy i married someone who is always game for anything, someone who somehow finds a way to make things work, and someone who isn't afraid to be wild! so last night we grabbed 3 items...our blow=up mattress, a sleeping bag and a box of matches and we hit the road! we drove towards AZ on the outskirts of town, far enough away that when we turned the truck off it was pitch black. i LOVE that pitch black feeling! barely being able to see my husband, but knowing he's there. in church they talked about blocking out all the noises in our life, so that's what we did. we turned down our christian music and listened to the silence. awh! i LOVE that!! everytime! and i'm so grateful my husband loves it like i do! then we blew up the mattress and layed in the back of the truck, seeing the city lights barely twinkle a hundred or so miles away. awwawww. with the two of us snuggle up in one sleeping bag, we talked the night away and eventually drifted into sleep. when we woke up a few hours later it had started to rain. it smelled soooo good, and the breeze through the rain drops was so refreshing. the dirt road we were on just drank up the rain. when we climbed out of the truck the ground was so thirsty that there was no mud!! we waited outside where the silence turned to that relazing and refreshing stormy sound. eventually we climbed back in the truck to head for home...but how i love nights like those. and how i love kirk. i'm so thankful he is fun and sporatic the way i am!
when we got home, we popped in kirks favorite kind of movies....cowboy movies! hahaha he's so cute! we watched Quiggly Down Under and it IS really good! i can only stand to watch those movies b/c i know he loves them so. "babe, i want to be a cowboy." and i want to be a cowgirl... i love the future dreams we make together. to live in a small sturdy town, in a good country home with a wrap-around pourch. a big green field around our house that our children can run, play, and scrape their knees in...the kind that is filled with horses, and long grass that is good for hiding in and planting. to have a big window in our country kitchen that overlooks our town so i can look out across all our beautiful land and watch our children play, as i'm cooking a big home made meal out of fresh food from our garden. a garden that was placed to help our children learn the value of hardwork and responsibility. and a big country window that we can watch the sun slowy set behind the mountains from our family dinner table, just after family home evening. a house that is small enough to keep our hearts set on the outside beauty around us, but a home that is big enough for our family and loved ones to find serenity and peace from the world. we want to live in a place that when we walk outside our back door at night, it's the moon and glitter-like stars in countless number that light our path. we want to have four wheelers and trucks to go mudding in the very second we see the rain coming. to raise beautiful girls and boys that we will teach to love the glorious gospel, how to cook, study, make friends, work hard and play even harder with our family...what a beautiful time that will be, how grateful i am to be able to dream with the one i love most...

only one thing could make tonight more fun....KIRK! awh babe! i love you!! another tuesday night with that handsome man of mine at the fire department....he is amazing! only 2ish more hours until he's home again!! i'm so excited for him to become a full time fire fighter, he is so close and so happy. to see him come home happy, to know he is proud of himself, to know he feels important there- what an absolute blessing it is!! i am just so thankful for that. words don't explain what a beautiful opportunity and God given blessing it is as his wife to have that in our life & marriage. speaking of being thankful to our Father... gosh. I am SO thankful to Him. once again, being the newly wed couple in our apt complex has made us the lucky new owners of so much! our neighbor down the side walk (HahahHAHahhaha) is moving back home and has given us all of his food storage and cleaning supplies. it is so nice to fill our shelfs, cupboards and freezer up with food. i asked my wonderful husband last night what he thinks the Lord expects us to do with all He has given us and he answered "keep making time to sit down and have dinner together." isn't that the pure, simple truth? i bet the Lord delights in family dinner tremendously. especially in today..... xoxo
Well..! mckenna came out from cedar today and it was such a blast! we went shoppin! ate at cafe rio! and topped the night off with ice cream!!! MmmMmm :) the perfect start to summer! i had so much fun with that girl of mine! and i'm so excited to see aly this weekend! she's comin out with her hubby and we are makin plans for his weekend! i LOVE when ppl come to st geezy! i'm so happy it's the typical salt lake 'getaway'!
HahahHAHAhahha i don't know what reminded me of this.... but i thought of this the other day... words that rhyme with HUBBY: chubby, flubby, tubby.... anything else?! HAhahahHAHAHha am i just immature or what?! they have nothing to do with MY hubby, but i just thought it was hilarious, so just sharin the laughs!!

by the way-there's absolutley NOTHIN like getting new make up! fresh mascara, new colors=new look! it's SPRING time! gotta feel like it, yeah?! PlUsS! i just found the CUTEST short-sleeved, half top that matches EXACTLY what my bridesmaids wore at my wedding, just a little more form fitting and a shad brighter...bought it, love it, can't wait to wear it. i seriously LOVE what my girlies wore at my wedding!!! SERIOUSLY! and totally! i would die to have one of those dresses! so watch out lovers! if i find one in your closet, it's history!! hahahahahaha aw. just kiddin! but for reals :) and dont' tell me you dont' just LOVE them!!

ow ow!!

LOVES!

SuMmMmer Motto 2010!

"life is short. so take too many pictures, blow your speakers, kiss at all the red lights, and pee your pants laughing. because one day you'll stop and take a look back at the past, and at that moment you're gonna realize: it was so worth it."
SoooOoo this actually came from some girly i use to know a long long time ago! pretty sure i loved it and it made me think... i & we are going to add to her list MAJOR and we're going to do it all this summer! it's our goal. you can expect to see pics of and hear all about them! :) awh! our FIRST st george summer!!!!! can't WAIT!
=kayak the colorado river! june 26th-totally excited!
=angles landing at zions!
=bon fires GALORE
=dirt biking/shot gun shooting/camping weekend at gunlock -April with brad and leah!
=EMT-I class together
=learn how to cake decorate! (kirk will participate by eating...he's good at that)

FIRST cake!! March 2010

=5k with the fire department
=go to the Vegas temple
=beach BBQ!
...and this is just the start! we'll be adding to this list i'm sure!!
YAY!